I've burned every bridge I've ever built to be with you so what the hell am I suppose to do now that you ignore me. I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive. I need a fucking miracle. Inside I feel this rage inside me and I want to scream till my lungs bleed but even then no one would hear me. I'm a prisoner in my own head, I can't change and I can't see the light, I just need this pain to end right here but it follows me. You push the closest person the furthest away. Why do we do that? Why do we like to hurt so much? I feel like most my life I've felt trapped and now when I supposedly have this freedom, I still feel more trapped then ever. I believed I would fly but then I realized I didnt have any wings when I jumped off the cliff.