I know what kind of person I am. I change my mind. ALOT. I like variety. I can't even eat without variety. A little bit of everything. That's my nature. So to be able to honestly say that I now know in my heart I can never ever EVER leave him...it's kind of a new self-discovery, one which I drowns out everything else. It's like suddenly I've awaken and each breathe I take trembles from the intensity of this love. Yea I said it. Love. I know i've spoken of love before...but it was different then...then was when anything could have happen and I was open to change. But now, now is different. I have never felt something so strong and so certain, like I finally KNOW, this is love, our love. I understand Romeo and Juliet-every lover who would rather die than live a day without the other. Of course I'm not speaking literally...obviously. But I would give up everything, EVERYTHING to stay with you. I don't even have to try hard to explain myself because I know this is exactly how you feel right now..isn't it. I want to be the one to make you happy. I want to make you smile inside. I want to make you laugh. I want to share everything from my drink to my bed with you. It's you Sam. It's always been you. It'll always be you. My life has changed because of you. I was selfish my whole life, and now I don't even have any desire to put me first. There's nothing like you and me. Nothing in the world comes close to you. They can't even touch you. You are my sunshine, my light in the dark. No one else listens to me talk on and on in tedious detail about mundane events happening every single day of my life and actually enjoys it. And when I stopped doing that, you actually got upset at me saying how we drifted apart. Who would care so damn much to say that? I cannot believe how much stupid I was to not pick up on that. I cannot lose you-only you would love me as much as you do. I think it is impossible for anybody else. I remember when i was over at Peter's house, I said I would die without you. And it's true. My heart would die without you. I honestly think I would. I've never connected with another person so perfectly, it had to be our fate. Finally, I'm myself and that's only because of you. California was absolutely amazing. The second I saw your face, I felt safe. We shared so many breath-taking moments in that two weeks that some people will never experience their whole life. This love is almost surreal-like a movie or more so a dream. But the time we locked eyes at EDC and I told you I'll never leave you, singing ....there's so many ways to loveeee you right in your face, so tired and barely able to move while soaking in the tub, you holding me outside in your arms and making everything okay again, riding the ferris wheel on the pier at night, and lastly sitting together writing our letters on the beach while playing above and beyond over and over again. . . yea, you can say my life with you is even better than a dream or any movie by far. I love you so much. And it's YOU I love. I've said this before...but somehow, it's different this time. It's YOU. Like I know you even better on a much deeper level than ever- like I can see into your heart and soul and I am render utterly and completely head-over-heels in love.