I read somewhere a quote that stings and rings in my ear though I try to blot it out in moments of pretentious sanity..
"when we have nothing left to burn, we burn ourselves"
I am not always a happy girl.
If I was, I wouldn't feel lost all the time.
If I was, I wouldn't fear.
If I was, I wouldn't be glaring into a mirror
Maybe I will find the answer in this girl I see staring right back at me
Give me a break
I'm so tired of being me.
Anything I'm not.
I want to feel light with nothing clinging onto me
I feel as all my faults fester on this body
.
I don't understand how people can be okay with themselves.
I don't know how you can just say, yup this is me. And be happy.
I feel like I've lost all my integrity.
I think to myself.
Solution.

To be a tiny speck of joy and innocence
That would almost be enough
Almost.








If I was not human
I think I'd be wind
When I'm happy, I'll send a refreshing breeze your way
When I'm angry, I'll blow the sea into an uproar and fuel the fire
I'd be light as nothing but stronger than anything
=) hehe.