I hate this subject. but let's ...
talk about Wisconsin.



I live there. whatever. okay well i was not born there, nor raised there, so i have no birth pride of being from the no-where state as some of my friends do. Coming into a state where whites outnumber any other minorities about 1000 to 1..lol it wasn't like I felt welcomed or accepted right off the bat. I moved to WI by third grade. I lived a FOB life. Seriously. I did. So, barely any interaction outside of school with anyone else other than my sister. That was life. Mom and Dad worked 10 hours every day. I didn't notice where I was in, nor cared. Just me and Ting, and we played house all day. No memories of..."ohh I remember when we went to this place....or did this very wisconian thing..." No attachments to the place I was placed in. And honestly, when you are a kid, well at least when I was a kid, really...I didn't matter at all where I was, because kids like me don't notice things like that. I always had something to play with, always had something I found interesting. When I got older, I started to noticed that there wasn't much around me, but really didn't matter seeing as I spent most my days IN the academy. Academy kids are in a world of their own. No..let me rephrase that, Boarding academy kids are in a world of their own. It's like rules rules and more rules to keep you cooped up, tied down, and sheltered in between Fields and fields of corn.
And now when I come here, I have never experienced such judgement from as place I can't even truly call home. Sadly the strongest judgement I've ever endured came from someone I love very very much. Thank God, this constant and almost daily bashing of my home, finally stopped for the most part, after he (yes, you Sam) realized how hurtful and just plain wrong it is to do that to someone, especially me. And also I do not feel at ease when I am at home. It's so dull, and I am not a dull person. I feel like I belong no where but in my head. I absolutely detest and avoid at all cost to answer the question where are you from? Because I know that look of ...oh wow where the hell is that?... And I mean seriously, it's not right, I shouldn't be made to feel ashamed that I live there. Even though I don't enjoy living there...how can I NOT be offended when you look at me like that? How can I NOT be taken back when you judge right off the bat that this place, and it's merely a place, which I have lived in for over 9 years now, where half my family lives, where most my friends are from, where I learned how to ride a bike, where I went to my first concert, where I picked out my first puppy, where I went to the movies with my friends, where I swam in the lakes in the summer, where I discovered church and what it means to know Jesus, where I played all day in 4 feet of snow outside my front yard, where I climbed the trees in my backyard, where I found my love for any form of art, where I spent all day in the library lost in piles of books, where I would swing in the hammock in the afternoon, where I found some of my best friends ..... tell me how can I NOT be offended when you give me that look, like, oh your from that place no one cares about so wow..how dull is your life?
I would have to have no pride, no self-respect, if I were to go...Oh yes you are very right, I have NO life because I am from there. I am just as boring and as colorless as you think I am. I have nothing of interest to say, and don't bother to ask because it's not worth hearing. . . That's fucked up. It's a war between hating the very mundane and simple state of WI, and trying to defend it all at the same time. I just wish people would realize how rude and offensive it really is to sum up a person's life base on one answer. Wisconsin. Fuck it... I'm gonna move to Jupiter. Lol But in all seriousness, we are all people, and we all put our pants on the same, one leg at a time.